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Wednesday, March 31, 2010

nO onE noEs hOw iT feeLs..

da de spider-web blm ehq? da 1 mth kn? hhehe..

sori ppl..been bz wif werq...and nutink to write oso....haha

nw theres alot to write..guess tiz gonna b my longest blog ever..hahha

firstly ;

e chalet wif GFS was great fun..eventhough not all manage to turn up..but its ok..bought fer dem cake fer our 1st yr fwenship to surpriise dem..hahha...aww...so switt.... thnx fer being great fren GFS...

then ;

now..currently have had enuf slip.. tsktsk...fer tiz few daes...damn tired..haiya...been helping out at e shop...da lame tk keje kerass kn...jdi mcm terase sgt pnat nyer tu..got no time to reali go out too...

sori fwens if u guys feel neglected...

hmm...

hari2 i ulang alek jb tau....how tired can tat be...

then ;

family doing gd la..so far...

itu pn coz i dun bother...msok tlinge kiri kua tlinge kanan..

but can feel e burden on top of me..

how i wish i can do sumtink to mend tiz fam of mine...

sigh..

then ;

fwens,dearest wani has been there fer me all tiz while..thnx babe.. hope u r strong to overcome tiz...saba je k...sume tejadi ade hikmah..

u mite neva noe if afta tis u going thru beta lyfe...

then ;

fer me plak..i dunnoe..

i lost words to type...

hmm

can see by my entering kan..

haha

aktuali,im plain confuse..i AM a confuse gal..

i tink its beta to juz leave everitink in life...

ive thought abt everitink n i guess i nid to restart my life afresh..

im truly sori fer hurting u..

im sure u will find someone much beta den me...

im sori to haf given u all e hopes..

n end up crushing it..

its not about 3rd party..

no nid to ask anione

i haven found anione beta den u..

i noe i neva will find anione hu luf me n tc of me more lyke u do..

but now... im sori...

i just wanna be alone...

im not ready fer our relationship..

or fer any relationship..

e further we go...

e more im gonna hurt u later on...

i noe i gonna regret doing tiz l8r on..

but fer nw..i tink..

let me regret

let me learn 4rm all e mistake i make..

if theres a will theres a way..

klau ade jodoh tkkn kemane.. kte pasti akn betemu kembali..

im sori again...

now ;

i've made up my mind n i noe i gotta b strng... plz pray fer me to be a strnger person..

im off to clean up my house...den to werk..n going bck jb den to holiday..

update u ppl soon..tc everione...

adeqnana off......

Labels: i dun care wat ppl wanna sae animore..MY LIFE, MY SAY...

Sunday, March 14, 2010

iiM Not Me...

i dunnoe y..
but sumtimes i fell lyke sumtink is wrong..
or mayb everitink is wrong..
about me..
family..
dearest frens..
or even boiffey...

i dunnoe y...
but sumtimes i dun feel im myself...
iim not me..
sumtink is missing 4rm inside me...

i dunnoe y...
but sumtimes my hart shouts silently...
silently to missing sumone...
missing the fun i use to haf...
missing the freedom i use to enjoy..
missing each n every moment i use to take..

but at the end of the dae...
i will eventually haf to calm myself down..
n say...
its ok..everitink is gonna be fine...wif him n her by myside..
tankiu hubby n darlink wanie fer being wif me all e while..
thru my ups n downs...

snoozing off...
adeq nana

Labels: its gonna be "ok"...

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